The Goal less Wander

Hmmm... I was the Goalless wander... That was until two weeks ago, I got into my depressed mood where I think that my life has no meaning and no purpose. Yeah, I know life always has a purpose and your life is what you make it with your actions and etc. But I just get into those days where when I reflect on what I have done with my life after high school, all I have done is get by. Working, slaving, gaming, lazying around. So really there is no one to blame but myself. Back on subject about how I was depressed I ask some of my coworkers if they had goals in life in which they do have goals and that I not looking past tomorrow had none. Forced into making a goal list starting with the most obtainable goals here is what I have come up with:

Goals In Life!
1. STOP BEING LAZY (I was told to put this at the top of the list cause everyone says that could do a whole lot more if I stopped being lazy)
2. Pay Rent (This was basically my whole goal list since I moved out on my own, but I was told that in order to get something I need to expand my list.)
3. Pay bills (Yeah no brainier here, but there are somedays not some but most days that I pick junk over necessities)
4. Save $20 a month (I found out in past years that if I say that I'm going to save money it really never happens, I figured that if I put a specific amount that it might be easier for me to save and since its a small amount at a time I wouldn't be tempted to dip into my new savings)
5. Learn to play another instrument: guitar, violin or piano (for sometime I have really wanted to play the violin, but the only thing that is stopping me from obtaining that goal is money right now. I have made a step to ask the pricing of the lessons plus a instrument it is quite a hefty fee. Maybe it will be better if I took piano lessons ?_?)
6.Learn a Language: Japanese, Chinese, Korean (My biggest and probably my most impossible goal out of my list it that I want to eventually learn all three of these languages... I have a hard time learning one language and now I want to learn three pfttt. I think I have gone mad)
7. Buy a new computer (Goes back to the saving money part T_T
8. Lose weight (I'm a chunky butt T_T I need to lose weight not only for health reasons but because if I get more fatter Imma need to invest into more clothes its like trying to dress a cow T_T)
9. Go back paddling (I miss cutting across the water, and watching the late afternoon sun reflection upon the water and the way I feel at peace being free on the open sea)
10. Learn Kickboxing
11. Go back to School (this was actually supposed to be up before learn to play an instrument. I'm to lazy to change the numbers so Imma put this at the bottom of the list)
12. GO TO WORK ON TIME!!! (I am permanently late ; ; my boss might kill me someday If i keep being late.

this should be enough writing for one entry, cause I'm tired now. need sleep ; ;

Day of Fun

Well its kinda unusual for me to write blogs so close together, but I actually did something outside of the house. I figured that it was worth something to write about. Lets see uh... the other I went to Kakaako (no sure if that is spelled right) waterfront park, exciting right! Lol not really. I went there with my boyfriend and a friend to go fishing. Big waste of time ; ; we didn't catch any fish I believe we were there for like four hours ; ; the fish was smart enough to eat our bait and not get caught. I have been telling everyone that we went there for rock fishing cause that was all we caught. Around like 8 o'clock this grandpa set up shop a few feet from us and caught a fish in like ten minutes ; ; but I guess that was all that was biting cause in a hour or so he and his one fished lefted.

Oh yeah I HATE CATS! ; ; I hate cats cause cats hate me *cry* The other day at the park there were a lot of cats around but none of them would come to me, I tried for like 2 hours ; ; da kitty dont like me ; ; I really love cats but none of the cats will ever come me its like that where ever I go. My boyfriend says that because the cats know better, he said that the cats can feel the inner evil me. *sniffle* I'm not evil! lol

After the whole fishing escapade when were were about to leave I decided to roll down the side of the steep hill, and we stayed there for 2 more hours just rolling down the hill and talking stories. I'm guessing at our age which is mid 20's it looked a bit weird. There was like little kids there on a school trip and they were staring at us when we rolled down the hill, I guess no matter how old you are you cant really kill the inner kid in you. It was a pretty cool day, maybe next time we will catch some kinda fish!

Quotes:

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

Wear short sleeves! Support your right to bare arms!

"Duct tape is like the force. It has a light side, a dark side, and it holds the world together."

He who laughs last didn't get it.

There is a fine line between fishing and just standing on the shore like an idiot.

Another Month

Wow, another month has gone by its almost Christmas. It amazes me how fast the seasons fly by, maybe its cause I to do more to make it feel like a I did a lot in these past months. The only thing eventful wise that I did was see a wrestling match and I went to the game arcade. The wrestling match was cool, most of it was fast past and entertaining. I just loved those Japanese fan girls with their streamers and chants, it really livened up the show. I know some people say that after a certain age you shouldn't be playing video games, and grow up. But what's the fun about being serious all the time, got to find ways to let out the child inside. ^_^ Most times I go to the arcade place to play air hockey against my boyfriend, I believe that from all the games we played I believe that I'm winning, although he will say that I cheat at air hockey but he's just doesn't like to admit defeat.

Hmmm... Lets see what else is there to write about? Well I'm really into drama, I like watching most of the Asian dramas (Korean, Japanese, Taiwanese, and Chinese). I find it kinda unique at the way they express their love in the dramas, its so different from what we have in the USA at least I think its different. Lets see, so far after counting all of the Asian drama that I have watched I believe it about 40. The five dramas that I like the most is Nodame Cantabile, They Kiss Again, Ying Ye 3+1, The First Coffee Prince, and Hana Kimi Taiwain ver.

Recently I have been watching a Korean reality show called We Got Married. I find it very funny and interesting. It started off with eight celebrities Don Don, Saori, Solbi, Andy, Alex, Crown J and Seo Inoung. They randomly matched them, and then each pair have to live together as if they were a married couple, hence the name. I found that each of the couples all have a unique charm, its actually pretty funny and cute at some of the stuff that each couple goes through. Well this should be enough writing for one post. ^_^ Instead of quotes today I will post some lyrics from part of a song.

Falling Slowly - Glen Hansand

I don't know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall through me
always fooll me
and I can't react
Games that never amount
to more then they're meant
Will play themselves out

Take this sinking boat and point it home
we've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you had a choice
you've made it now

Falling slowly, eyes that know me
and I cant go back
Moods that take me and erase me
and I'm painted black
you've suffered enough
and warred with your self
its time that you won

Take this sinking boat and point it home
we've still got time