Hmm... I haven't post for a while. Actually this is the first post of the year for me, I think. Well Happy New Year! I just felt that I should share this picture. I love the way the sun sets even if its a rainy day.
Well there isn't much for me to write about, like that is something new. I have no idea but this year seems to be going alright at the moment, I haven't really had any episode of self worth this year yet, I haven't beaten my self down so that no one can. So I look at it as good sign. I think I am gaining a bit more confidence in what I have been doing lately and I don't like a slacker so much any more. I have had a lot of self reflecting that I had did in the last couple of months or so.
Last year during the Christmas holiday I met a lady who had an extremely large tumor in her intestines and she had surgery to cut some of it out but she wasn't done yet. She was relatively happy at least she looked it, she was also deaf, something had happen that she had lost her hearing about 10 years ago. She was looking for something that she could watch in the hospital while she was recovering from her surgery, I had sold her a portable blu-ray player and some movies with sub-titles. When she was buying it she looked so happy that she got something to help her take her mind off the pain she was going through, I though to my self why the hell are you pitying yourself. For once in my life I was grateful to be me, it sounds pretty bad but that is what I felt.
When I get really down now I tell myself that I shouldn't complain because there is always someone out that is worse off then me and they can make it. What excuses do I have not to. I think I will name this picture healing light.
Ashely Smith -
