Why is it that when I am at work it feels like the energy is being drained out of me? It's so weird, but when I clock out for the day it seems like all of my energy comes back. What can one do to make work more enjoyable? Is it a mind set that you have to prepare yourself for or is something that you have to actually enjoy? I some days it feels like I got plenty of energy but those are usually the days there are people that I like working with. I wonder why the time drags on forever it seem, some days I wish that time would fly by faster. But later on when I think about it, it seems like time flies by to fast.
I wonder if we can go through like and enjoy every aspect of it. Like the old saying goes that one should live life to its fullest. I guess it would have to go on a persons version of comfort and stuff. I wonder if there are many people who go through life with out any regrets? But why would anyone regret it, you can't really go back and change it can we?
I know that right now it is hard economically. But really, I see a lot of people with expensive stuff such as electronics, brand name bags, clothes, shoes and etc... How can we be bad off if we can still buy such expensive extravagance. I wonder why we believe that we can't go through life without some of these stuff, is that we can't or we won't.
Its not really necessities but still we buy them, why? You know some days I see homeless people with cellphones, I have always found that weird. I know I have heard many stories where some of those beggars out there are fakes, they just do it to con honest people out of money. I know since I have heard some of those stories that I don't really give money to beggars, I konw not all of them are cons but I can't help think what if this is just a con. I have heard that some of the dudes own car and nice house, well shit I can't afford a car let alone my rent. Another thing that pisses me off about homeless poeple is that usually I am willing enough to give them food if I have any, somedays I would offer people my spam musubi or manapua and I get answers like I don't like that stuff or that isn't really healthy for me. But who the fuk are these people to say that they don't like it or it ain't healthy for them if they are hungery. I guess they really ain't hungery after all.
Somedays I don't think that working two jobs is worth it. It't hard cause I go to school part time also, I always feel so burnt out like I don't ever get enough sleep when I had just had like a full eight hours of sleep. I know somedays my head feels like its foggy or that I'm wading through muck just to think clearly. I know there are other people that probably carry more shit then I do, but I don't think that I am doing it right. I wonder how long till I really burn myself out hopefully I won't find out the hard way.
